20th Birthday!!

Yesterday's yesterday I celebrated my 20th birthday with my friends! After class at APB, I went over with my friends to SACC mall so we could have our lunch there and celebrate my birthday.

I encountered some sort of trouble with my ATM card so by the time me and Nabil (my housemate who was such a kind hearted little doll) met up with the others at Secret Recipe, all of them were waiting for me! I kept apologizing again and again *starts singing 'Again and Again' by 2PM* but all of them said it wasn't a big deal. When my cute little friends say that, I feel as if I'm the luckiest person in the whole wide world! It's always nice to know that people love you!

Anyway, we ordered our food and sat there happily waiting to be served when Hanan (she's my other housemate/roommate) said she needed to go the bathroom.

"Eh, I nk g toilet jap. Yuni teman I."

I watched them go as the food arrived and I thought nothing of it.

It was when I was almost tucking into my mac and cheese was when Yuni and Nan came into Secret Recipe with this super HUGE plastic bag!

Guess what was in it? A super HUGE birthday card! It was pink and decorated with shiny pink hearts! It was the cutest thing ever! I was so touched by their gift I felt like crying but I think the joy of it all made my tear glands dry up! Lol. But no other words can express how truly happy I felt at this super sweet and wonderful gesture! Thank you my lovely friends for such a wonderful gift!

my birthday gift the HUGE card!
Thank you!

Reading what you guys wrote! Lol. So cute and sweet! May Allah bless you all!

Loving my b'day

With other birthday girl Nabilah, Eka's childhood friend!
Had a lovely birthday together!

Birthday doughnuts! The lettering done by Yuni! She used Choki2 to do it!
What an amazing job!

Well, that was when I celebrated with my friends. I just had a second celebration with my family just now but I'll write that one tomorrow! Right now I'm off to bed! God, sooooooooooooo sleepy...

Hurt?

Just because you're hurting,
Just because you're feeling,
Doesn't give you the right,
To be demeaning.

Just because you feel pain,
just because you're not feeling sane,
Doesn't give to the right,
To take it like as if it were a game.

Just because you feel blue,
Just because you feel down,
Doesn't give you the right,
To spread it all around.

Just because I'm happy,
And you're not,
Just because I feel good,
And you don't,
Doesn't give you the right,
To frown and moan.

You say it's cuz' you're hurting,
You say you can't help this feeling,
You say these things again and again,
It still doesn't make it right,
When will you repent and see the light?

I hate people like you,
Who think you're the only ones who hurt,
When we do too,
Everybody hurts,
And everybody cries,
So don't start screaming,
And shouting out your lies!

Stop thinking of only you,
The world doesn't only revolve around you,
You can't keep this attitude,
You're being so selfish,
You're thinking only of yourself,
Wake up, woman,
Nobody's backing you up,
There ain't no one left...

Frenemies?

Frenemies?

There was this girl,
She had this game,
She toyed with my feelings,
And tossed them into the flames.

She pretended to be a friend,
Smiled with me laughed and joked,
Her easy humor and boyish nature,
Well she was no Lady I'd coach.

This girl said to me,
You are my closest friend but to
a certain degree,
I had no choice but to agree,
For I too had a friend who was closest to me.

Despite our times together,
She knew naught of how to make it last
forever,
She used my knowledge and my friendship,
To barter trade it for her benefit.

It was awful to see a friend turned enemy,
What's worse is that it stings like the sea anemone,
Our frindship once was so carefree and lovely,
Now I suppose I'll have to call her a "Frenemy".

A poem by Jalilah/Lily

Dedicated specially for a loser who doesn't know what a god damn good friend she had (well, sorta still has cuz' unfortunately I live with her and it won't do if I have to fight her all the time). Stupid girl. Idiot girl. Hope you learnt your lesson but that's probably asking for too much.

Of Tooth Aches and Fainting Spells

I went back home to Penang last Friday. That makes it three days ago. I was so excited to go back home and everything. I mean, it's Penang for crying out loud! Yea, I know it's the fasting month but I was just thrilled by the idea of the food!

I was in the car with my bro and a couple of his friends. One of 'em really reminded me of Acap from ASASI...Hm, wonder what happened to that dude????

Anyway, even when I was in the car, I felt my gums salivating a bit more than usual due to the pain. Hey, these things have happened before and lots of my doctors say the same thing again and again.

"Your gums need water when it's the fasting month! They hurt more cuz' your dehydrated."

So I was in vein throbbing pain for the whole day on Saturday. I had to bukak puasa and take like brape puluh biji Ponstan in order to decrease like...gee 20 percent of the pain... The amount of pain killers I took shoulda made me feel like I was in heaven or something...



And then on Sunday...Tragedy...Striked...

I woke up...

Had Sahur with my family...

And then...

Stars, stars, stars...

I saw them...

And then it was total blackout...

Yeah, I fainted. I wasn't at all prepared for it. I was talking and I asked for the water... Suddenly, I saw stars and the next thing I knew was I was in my Mama's arms and she was yelling at me at the top of her lungs.

All I felt was pain all over me and all I heard was my Mom screaming my name.


Everybody was in such a panic. My bro said he thought some horrible thing had befallen on us. He said he was thinking of all the nightmarish things ever.

"Abang dok ingat orang masuk rumah ka, binatang ka! Ada api ka! Scary gila!"

My Mama kept saying what a big huge nightmare gone real life the whole thing was.


She said I'd reached out for the water and then I had it in my hand. I just blinked rapidly and I slumped over within a couple of seconds. Mama said she had no time to make a grab at me and that I fell over, broke the chair I was sitting in, hit my head, shoulder and the whole of my left side against the wall. Alhamdullillah, there was no blood. I wasn't injured in any way except for the fact that I still feel aches and pains on my neck, shoulder blade and hips and ribs...my head hurts most though...

Turned out I had my menses in the next few hours to come. I fainted cuz' of the pain of the tooth ache and my cramps from my menses. When we went to the doctor's, he simply said it was alright. Just that I had low blood due to the loss of blood from my cycle and he recommended I go over to an oxi-whatchamacallit facial surgeon to perform a minor surgery so that my swollen gums get to become normal again.

The stupid image of fainting

The real thing.

Due the medication he's given me, my gums have gone down a bit but it's still swollen and it still hurts when I eat something hard (tho dat doesn't stop me).

So tomorrow's the day I og to the dentist to get my swollen gums fixed. I'm skipping the whole week cuz' of the recovery rate I need after the operation.

Doa for me, my friends.

Michael Jackson, Puncak Perdana and pure TORTURE!!!!

Okay, first things first. Puncak Perdana. I'm sure many TESLians would know what I'm talking about here. It's just this god forsaken place in the middle of no where!! I went there cuz' I received the surat tawaran from the internet and it stated the date 27th July. I was already feeling sooo bummed about going back so early and then it went downhill!! So me and my bro and my mom drove there, right? And the stupid awful sign boards just keep on confusing people. We kept getting lost here and there! I was beginning to feel this awful sinking feeling right in the pit of my stomach. You know that feeling when all your intestines feel like they're swimming and wriggling about each other? And your organs feel like they're about to drop right out of your body? And when you feel like suddenly there's no floor and you're just falling down into a black abyss? Yup. That's the miserable feeling I felt. I kept thinking to myself; "Ya Allah, please don't let them ask for stupid things like the medical check-up sh@t and 200 gazillion borangs!! I went thru that crap already and I ain't goin' thru all that again!!"

Nervousness

But my nightmare came true...Once I got there, I noticed girls holding on to the x-ray files. My heart practically went *CLUNK!* at the sight of those dreaded brown files. I wanted to run away and never set foot in a university again, education and work be damned! I took big gulps of air and tried not to burst into tears as we unloaded and packed everything from Abang's car. Getting all of my stuff in the room I was assigned to was such a pain! And then I unpacked everything and put them in my closet. I'll have to admit the rooms in Puncak Perdana were fantastic! But I still had that brimming feeling of utter doom.

Scared To Death

So I go over to the other room in that apartment and shyly asks the girl if she was new.

"Are you new here? I mean, is this your first time getting into university?"

"Yeah," answers the girl.

"Oh, I've been in UiTM before but I did ASASI TESL and I've been through all of that MMS thing!"

She doesn't get anything but the next girl I met told me a right horror! Her name was Biha.
And she told me it was all because I clicked on the wrong link! She said when we checked on the upu website the link that directed us to the surat tawaran was not what we should have clicked on. What we should have done was go right into the student portal link and then get our surat tawaran. The one in the student portal would've stated the beautiful date: 3rd July. The one on the 27th was for all the kids to go over and live in Puncak Perdana for one miserable week for that MMS thingy and then pack up and move over to the main campus once all the MMS crap's over! Why on earth would anybody plan something as stupid as that?? Why send kids to live in a god forsaken place in the middle of no where only to have them travel back to the main campus??? Honestly, I think it was some sorta brain wash thing they did to kids. You know; the whole get-them-to-a-god-forsaken-place-and-brainwash-them kinda thing?

Brainwash

And once I found this whole thing out, I told this lady everything and she sympathized with me. She told me I had two options; 1. That I stay for the sh*tty MMS thing again and just wait for the buses to come and take me back to the main campus like all the other girls or 2. I packed up my stuff myself and go back to Penang to get all of the medical check-up and borang thingy done then go back to Shah Alam and straight away daftar diri kat kolej dlm main campus. I chose option 2. Imagine the horror of getting all of those things back down from the 4th floor.

So now I'm back home. YAY!!! But it'll only last for a few days...:( I'll have to call that lady again and ask her where should I daftar diri. It's all so complicated, yeah? I hate how the whole system works! I almost died that night by carrying all of those heavy things. It was exhausting.

Today, I've printed out everything I needed to and I've done that sh*tty medical check-up thing. I just need to get all of the other photostated copies chopped and signed by a grade A officer. Ya Allah, I hope I won't get into any trouble once I'm there at the main campus. I pray for that.

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On to Wacko Jacko.

1958-2009

God, I was so sad the morning I was leaving for Puncak cuz' that was the morning I found out that Michael Jackson died.

The world had never known a better singer, dancer, performer or artist. He was truly great at his craft; a real genius. So gifted and talented. Justin Timberlake could try to dance like MJ but it still won't look as good! No one could copy Michael Jackson! Michael Jackson was simply unique! He was on a whole different level.

You ask anybody, be it your very own maid from Indonesia(I actually did ask my maid that when I was 10), everybody knew who Michael Jackson was.

People took advantage of him and made him out to be a sick pedophile. Well, if he was such a sicko how come the police couldn't find anything on him? You know pedophiles would have their ways of satisfying their sick needs ie. photographs, websites, videos, etc, etc. Pedophilic rings are always like that. But nobody could pin a thing on Michael. And why would one of the parents of said abused child want to settle such a horrid act outside of court? If your child was sexually abused would you just give it up like that? Wouldn't you wanna see the sick dude rot in jail?

He was a humanitarian. He loved children and he himself was like a child. He saw the world with the eyes of child. He had that sweetness and innocence to him. I'm not saying he was an angel but he was not the sick person people thought he was. He tried to make the world a better place with his songs. He tried to make people aware of what the earth was turning into in Earth Song. He made people think about racism with Black and White.

People who wanted his money destroyed him and in the process rid the world of a great artist. Well, at least he's now a muslim so we'll see him in heaven. :)

Favorite songs and clips of all times:

Bad

Dangerous


Smooth Criminal


Thriller

Remember The Time


Beat It

Billie Jean

Ghosts, a 38 long minute video clip.
Thoroughly enjoyed it.

Scream with sister Janet Jackson.
The most expensive video clip in history.
$7 million dollars.

In The Closet with Noami Campbell

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About Atiqah Anas:

1. She is extremely hard working and ambitious. You can stop her at all!! She will keep going forward as long as she is still breathing!
2. Not a wanna-be but she's a gonna-be lawyer. Insyallah. :)
3. A loyal, considerate, honest-to-god friend! She'll never betray you...Your the best in a friend that anybody would want!
4. Is extremely smart. She's got the mindset and the intelligence of a pro! You do not want to debate her!
5. Passionate!! She will go through lengths about anything she is passionate...Music, friends, family and taekwan-do(etc, etc) included!

Setiap blogger mestilah menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi sendiri sebelum memilih:

About me:

1. I'm a huge manga buff. I spend hours on Onemanga just to read various mangas.
2. Constantly on the computer nowadays. All I do is download songs and read other people's blogs. I rarely update my own. Such a lazy bum...
3. Have been eating and eating like nobody's business. Mama has agreed to be my chubby buddy so we're both dieting and puasa-ing.
4. Have fallen in love with Christian Bale again after watching him in Terminator Salvation...
5. Keep telling herself to draw something cool this holiday but still have not...
6. Likes bishonens that people will say look like bapoks...My brother and mother included. Sigh. D:
7. Have been known to break things, drop things and destroy her body parts in the process...Am such a KLUTZ!!
8. Has been dancing the robot every time a dance song comes on...And she's getting pretty good at it too...@.@
9. Is fasting as she writes this and has about the most horrible toothaches of all time. The fact that she is fasting makes it impossible for the pain to go away....>.<
10. Is gonna go watch all of the movies her brother has handed to her which includes Blood In, Blood Out, Pulp Fiction and The Butterfly Effect.

KITTYIIIIEEEE!!!!!!!

Cats...Cats are such beautiful creatures aren't they? I just love cats. There's something going on with them, don't you guys think? The way they move...All sleek and sexy. Wish I could move like that. Instead I was blessed with utter clumsiness and have been known as a klutz, 'budak cemerkap' and other stuff of the same meaning. They're also a bit like babies. You know how sometimes when you look at babies and you think "OMG, they're just sooooo CUTE!! It's like they know they're cute!!" Kucing pun samalah jugak....It knows the power of its cuteness and that it is capable of rendering even the most stoic and aloof people utterly helpless due to its cuteness factor. Kittens are especially cute! Just thinking about them makes me feel like I wanna grab one and cuddle it to death. Natch. Sai once said to me, "You're like the animal psycho killer version of Albert Fish, y'know that!" Lmao. That was cute Sai.

Anyway, I used to have a cat of my own. Two cats actually. The first was called Muffin. Yeah, we like to name our cats with utterly cute and soppy names like that. I personally think it maximises the cuteness factor of a cat. The second kitty was called Baby. See what I mean about the names? What could be cuter than Baby? She was the sweetest most manja kitten in the world. I used to cuddle her and rock her like a real baby and sang her lullabys and watch her sleep in my arms. Utter cuteness!!! She had the sweetest purr too. It was a sound that said "Feed me cuz' I'm cute!"

Muffin was a male cat and Tok Mummy used to call him a gangster! No kidding! But he was cute though and had a particular soft spot for Abang. What am I saying? Abang had a particular soft spot for him! That cat actually died while waiting for my bro. It was so sad...Sometimes Abang says that Muffin will one day return to us. I think that's never gonna happen cuz' when they don't come back then that could only mean that it is the end for them. Poor sweet dears. We truly loved them though.

OMG! She looks a whole lot like Baby!

Cats...I remembered one cute picture of a cat once posted in the Malaysian magazine Gempak. Could never forget that one.

Here are some pics of kitties getting all creative and cute with glass...

I clearly DO NOT like parties...


Oh great! This is your idea of getting 'snug'?


"Plenty of space for me to tap dance!"


"Soooo...Your a boy, huh???"


"Whatchu lookin' at, punk?"


"Hic! Squeeze me!"


"Hey, Tony! Why don't you, uh, fill me up a bit, eh? 'Preciate the gesture there!"


"Minum cam aku lg puas hati!"


"Tak! Minum cam aku lagiiii pueh hati hang! Haaa, ambik hak yg nih!"

Me: "Ewwwww! Grossness!"

And perhaps a couple of drinks too...Damn kitties! They can get away with doing the most disgusting of things too. Way to go for the cuteness factor.