Am HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi everyone! It's been a while actually since I've 'actually' gone back but I'm just pure lazy when it comes to these kinds of things. My blog, unfortunately, is always left neglected for some time until I get off my lazy bum and write something down. Haaaa!~ Penang! Home! Quite nothing like it! I'm just ever so glad that now I'm back all safe and sound in my cozy little house with my beautiful family. Ah, it actually tastes like a little piece of heaven! And all the food! Nih yg nk wat cm Kei nih! "The FOOD! Think of the FOOOOD!!!" Haha! Lol.

And all that unlimited access to the internet! Wohooo! Gile menyeronokkan! Have been downloading songs, watching videos left and right and getting all those pix of Kazuya Kamenashi and Akanishi Jin like crazy! Ya gotta love all those Gokusen dudes! They are way HAWT! :D

What else have I been doing these couple of days? Hm??? Oh, yeah, eating! There's like a mountain of food in the fridge right now! You can barely shove anything else in there! And just yesterday Mama made pineapple pie! OMG! I'm so gonna get fat but who gives a shit, right? I can eat what I like and guess what it's my frickin' body and I'll do whatever I like to it thank YOU very much! Hmph! Well, anyway, yes I haven't yet been any where yet except for last night. We had dinner at this gerai somewhere at Jalan Tengah. Actually both Mama and Papa wanted to go to this other restaurant called Pak Hussein or something but Ima and Yaya were screaming and yelling at the very idea of it.

Grudgingly they admitted that the food at this 'Pak Hussein' was very delicious but the real reason why they didn't want to set foot in this place was because there was this creepy old man who kept on harassing them. They got really scared of him. Ima said that the asshole actually went and said "Hak yg mana yg kakak?" to which she replied quietly "Saya." And the fool kept on trying to approach them. When I heard what the stupid retard did it immediately brought back memories of me at the Section 17 bus station in Shah Alam. You know those ugly freaks that yell at the top of the lungs "Johor Bahru!!" or "Pulau Pinang!!"? Yeah, well, one of these freaks actually had the nerve to comment me! ME!!!??? I was yawning at that time and he saw me from A FAR(mind u) and had the audacity to say "Haaa, dia dah menguap!" What the hell was that all about??? I wanted to just grab this HUGE stick or pole or something and just RAM it up his stupid face! Seriously! He was just *so* annoying!

So I told Ima and Yaya about it and said that if that sort of freak ever came near you guys again just completely ignore them! Glare at them but don't say a word. Show how disgusted you are by these idiotic 'kolot' people but don't speak! They're just one of those idiotic morons who just happened to have crawled out of a cave and probably came into human contact for the very first time.

Ima and Yaya said they were seriously creeped out by the dude because he was an ugly old balding man with one tooth missing. He sounded like a piece a shit to me. They said he looked like a pervert. He even went and comment "Haaa, awat muka masam?" at Ima when she made a face at him. OOooooh! Kalaulah aku dapat laki tu serious nk bagi ja! Nk bantai muka dia puas2 buang! Makhluk macam tu tak patut biaq hidup lah! Meluat betui!

Mula2 tu Mama and Papa still wanted to go to that Pak Hussein place. And in the car, all of us kept arguing with each other. Mama and Papa both accused Ima and Yaya of over-reacting and being dramatic. But as my two little sisters kept on telling them what really happened, and me supporting them, Mama and Papa said "Alright, we'll go eat at the other restaurant." The girls really cooled down at the thought and all of us started to talk about these 'weirdos'. Papa kept on saying things like "The next time I catch this guy doing that to you guys I'm gonna tell 'im off!!" or "Patut mau ckp skit 'Hang tok sah dok ganggu budak2 lah! Hang buat kerja hang sendiri sudahlah!'".

In any case, the other place we went to served quite delicious stuff too. Later, as we drove on, I saw that Pak Hussein restaurant and it sure did look a nice place to eat. But no regrets. My poor little dears were severely creeped out by the sicko and they've developed a phobia for that place. Yaya actually cried out "This place is CURSED!!" to which me and her started quoting The Mummy; "This is cursed! That is cursed!" Lol. I pity the girls. I know how they feel. It's like having a retarded stalker (actually used to have one those...eeek!) following you everywhere. Well, I suppose that's about it. Have found a new love in the Gokusen dudes and J-Pop band KAT-TUN. Hey! Say! JUMP is also pretty good too. Hm, should give Jun Matsumoto's band Arashi a try as well. Ja ne!

Exhausted.......

Just wanna write a couple of things here. I've been getting pretty close to one of B classmates lately. He's really nice and I'm glad now that we actually share some secrets with each other. I mean, we've only had a couple of weeks and within this short period we've already known quite a bit about each other. He's spilled to me some things that I have sworn not to tell any one. Apparently though, it seems lotsa people seem to already have guessed it...Sigh. Poor Lil' Guy. From now on, he shall be known as Lil' Guy.

I've also been getting really sick and tired about this freakin' drama thing. The sad thing is that when you're doing drama, there will be other dramas that accompanies it. For example, Bugsy has been crying her eyeballs out due to a little glitch on stage and Noodle had to step in for her. Poor sweet little Bugsy. It's not really her fault though. I blame the Bucktooth for this! It's all his fault! Going on around and comparing us to all the other productions out there.

"Look at Yada3's drama! They even have a superb dance sequence thingy in it! We should be more like them!" says Bucktooth, going all high and mighty.

And I was like , 'Sh@# man, if you wanna compare us to Yada3's drama then that is like comparing a blue whale and a guppy! That's so not fair!'

But we went on with this idea and danced our heart out and even then Bucktooth was not happy.

"Why aren't we synchronized? Why do we look so...unorganized?" he cries out in his annoying voice.

At this moment, I have a huge urge to just go over and slap the living daylights out of him! Thank goodness I am quite a patient person.

So the dances...Well, because of these dances, most of us have neglected the script. And Bugsy's breakdown was the ultimate proof of it! But now that we've all cooled down...hopefully, everything will turn out okay.

Due to exhaustion out of drama practice have now had not enough sleep. I see eye bags under my eyes...Not a pretty sight.

Not only that, couldn't get to see Dr. Hanim for her approval of my topic for the god damn argumentative essay. Sigh. Now I'll never know whether or not my essay will actually get some marks. Insyaallah, jadi la kot...Tried seeing her today but she doesn't want to have anything to do with me. Practically showed me the door herself. Sigh. Redha je la time tu...Suppose it is my own fault. Sigh. (Have been sighing a lot lately)

Have now just found out that Grammar class is canceled and am rather thrilled. At least there's a bit of good news somewhere. It sucks living the awful life here in Shah Alam where you're so far away from your family and nothing good has been happening to you lately and your head actually literally feels like it's been run over by a train! Here it comes another big, fat HUGE sigh! SIGH! I pray to Allah that everything will turn out alright in the end. That maybe somehow or other Dr. Hanim will accept my essay and that everything will go smoothly well with the drama and that I do well for the finals and that I'll get to continue in the BEd TESL programme. I also hope that my Listening and Speaking test goes well.

Gonna hope and pray for the best.

DEBATE!!!!

OMG! I've got to go for that god damn debate this evening! It sucks big time. It's sudde3nly gone and made me nervous. I feel like throwing up my contents. Urgh! Dammit, why did I go and sign up for that thing in the first place? Oh, right. Because I missed doing debate and thought it was great that I could get my hands on another certificate. Oh yeah, and it was alos because I suddenly had this insane urge to show off. I don't know what the FUCK that clicked in my brain that made me think I even had the bloody right to show off! God! Why am I such a freak??? I don't why but this idiotic idea strolled into my head and made me think "Hey, I've had about three years of experience in debate and I think this is the bloody time to show off!"...Usually, I'm not exactly the show-off-y kind of person. I tend to just let people notice my good qualities in a natural way. I mean, I do not plan in advance thinking "Right, this is the perfect opportunity to show off." I usually just let it all unravel by itself. I think it was the idea of all these novices at debate that got me thinking "Yeah, I can kick their little butts" only friggin' problem is that I hadn't realize4d they may be novices in the UNIVERSITY but they're definitely NOT novices when they were in school a couple of years ago. Just like me. I have about three years experience, they might have like about what? Five? Six years of experience? Never mind, I'm sure I can bloody well handle them. I mean, they only have about two or three years ahead of me; that can't make too much of a difference can it? Oh what the hell am I thinking! I know bloody well it makes a HUGE difference if you're ahead two or three years! I think I'm going a little nuts here. Blimey. I think I'd better get ready. Ol' Ainatul might already be back here to come and fetch me so we could head off together for the debate seminar thingy. Thank goodness, psychotic Kei will also be in it. I think he will make me feel at ease what with him not taking this seriously. He never takes anything seriously. He probably goes into a debate thinking "Oh, just another debate coming up. Who will I have to sleep with in order to get some chocolate biscuits sent in, eh?" Well, he's just an extremely perverted sort of person when you really think about it. Oh, shit gotta go!

Home in Penang!!!!!

Right now, I'm feeling sooooooooo HAPPY but at the same time oh, so sad. I'm in my home right now. I'm in my parents room. It's been so wonderful being back here in my own sanctuary. My home is my castle. Sigh. I think I'll never tire of that saying. It was just perfectly magical being here.

It was momsy's birthday yesterday and boy did we have fun! Mama bought DVDs and we all sat down and watched Slumdog Millionaire and Australia while eating chocolates and Chachos. Or was it Nachos? Can't remember. Anyway, we had spaghetti and meatballs for lunch! There was a HUGE salad bowl(didn't touch that though, not a big fan of veges) as well. The lunch was just LOVELY! We chatted as we ate and laughed, it was just pure heaven. I think these are one of the happiest moments of my entire life.

Later, mama and I went out to Watsons to get me my useful batch of Ponstan. I was attracted to the make-up at the shelves and mama said she'd bought this really wonderful liquid eyeliner at TESCO and she said it only costs RM6.90. Once we got those, we headed straight to TESCO. Heeheee. I actually went and got two things instead of one at TESCO. Momsy's treat. She's just ever so glad that I am home for her birthday just as I am ever so happy to be home. I had that wonderful liquid eyeliner but I also got this beautiful lip gloss. Mmmmm. Lip smacking!

So once we got home, momsy unwrapped her presents was just thrilled to see a Guess handbag (GORGEOUS, frm my mak su o' course), a cupcake making kit(complete with recipe book, frm Ziyad and Hannah and Athirah), a MAC eyeshadow palet(pink with glitters on the cover, by moi) and pretty photo frame with tiny sea shells on it(by papa, Ima and Yaya.

And for dinner, we went out to Swenson's. Oh, I wasn't too keen of my fish-in-a-jacket but I still had a splendid time. It's just so nice to be surrounded by the people you love and to talk to them and laugh with them and eat with them. I think the feeling I felt wasn't just happiness but it was also contentment. I feel so blessed to have such a loving family. Thank you Allah for giving me them. I'm eternally grateful to you.

So, now I'm going back to Shah Alam. I won't say it's "that dreadful place", I won't call it "that horrid place", in fact, I won't say anything bad about it. I do not wish to be upset or to make myself sad. I just want to bring this wonderful feeling to Shah Alam. It'll keep me warm at cold nights, it will put a smile on my lips when I feel lonely and it will make my heart ache with love. Comfort is what it will give me. And love and happiness as well.











Until next time.

Of PGL, fevers and other stuff...

Phew! Okay, there’re so many things going on lately…For example, one of my friends at fac is acting all weird. She’s being all cold to me and treating me as if I were nothing but the dirt under her stubby little toes. Yeah, I know what you’re thinking. “She’s just exaggerating…” but nope! I ain’t exaggerating right now. I’m deadly serious, if you must know. She’s been like this for some time. Three weeks or more. But who gives a shit about a useless “friend” like her? Cuz’ I’m tired of thinking of what I might’ve done wrong. I’m not a beggar! I will not beg people to be my friend! If she thinks I’m not good enough for her or whatever then she can very well go and f*&# herself! Squeeze the language. But it’s been pissing me off lately, the way she’s been acting. But I’ve felt really good today. I’m quite happy that she wasn’t around today and I haven’t felt this good since the last three weeks. I’ve got a friggin’ pride, god dammit! I would NOT and I mean NEVER stoop as low as to ask her what exactly have I done that she’s found so offensive because guess what? I haven’t done one single thing wrong! Not that I know of. But whatever it is, I’m gonna listen to my true sweet bestie, Atiqah and move on from this wretched issue. I’m just gonna forget about this dipshit girl. After all, who the hell is she compared to my true real long time besties? She’s nothing. And I won’t bother about this anymore. I’m putting it all behind me. I know I can definitely move on now. I won’t need her. Never did actually.

Right, the next thing I’m gonna touch on is the PGL (Puteri Gunung Ledang) the play. I’ll say it was simply awesome! It was really good. I thought AC Mizal as the Gusti Adipati was simply awesome! I mean, he’s usually a comedian but he actually did a fantastic job as a fierce and determined prince. The way his voice sounded…Meh, scary gila! Good job!x2 Tiara Jacquelina was of course perfect as the pretty princess of Java. The acting was all great except for that dude, Stephen Hughes. I thought at first his acting fell a bit flat. I mean, sure he had the voice but somehow or other he sounded a bit lame. :P Natch! Hey, I’m entitled to my own opinions. If I don’t like something then I have the right to say it. Well, anyway, it was only after the twenty minute break did I thought his acting improved. I mean, it was only then that he sounded really good. And I thought his acting was fantastic. He is of course handsome but that is not the reason I like him. I liked his acting mostly rather than his face.

The props and everything was superb. In fact, I’m quite proud that it’s Malaysian’s best. The whole play was absolutely amazing. They were quite creative for using the steps/hill. Most of the play, these steps/hill was used over and over again in creative ways. I thought that was real smart of them to do so. Wish I could get my hands on the soundtrack. I must say that most of the songs were just great. I loved Melaka. It was just so great. The melody and the lyrics… Lovely. I also favor that song that goes “Suatu hari nanti…”. That was really sweet. I mean, the song was all rancak and haunting and mesmerizing, you just get swallowed in it. :D Ahhh…Damn, getting all passionate and dreamy eyed here. D: Sowey ‘bout that. Hehehehe…

Umm, so to put it in a nutshell, I thought the show was fantastic! Really enjoyed myself there. :D

I just had a fever last night…Blugh. Still feel that weird buzzy feeling in the head. Feels like it’s been run over by a train or something. Due to this, I have been popping up pills like nobody’s business. :D All my ponstan have finished now. Hang on. I think I’ve still got a packet left somewhere. Perhaps it’s buried deep underneath in my old back-pack. I shall have to have a looksie.

Am kinda hoping I’ll be able to go back next week. It’s, momsy’s birthday and I’ve already got her something nice so…Mmmm, but I dunno yet. It’s all those bloody test that’s got me freakin’ out a bit. Such a bummer. But I think I’ll manage soon enough. After all, I’ve got another day. I can slog tomorrow.

Well, I’ll update later. Ta!

I'll post the pictures of PGL at Istana Budaya once I get my hands on them.

Pesta

We went to pesta, my cousins and my sisters! OMG! I went on 4 rides altogether! It was the freakiest thing on earth! My god, what was I thinking??? My first ride was the Lethal Weapon and that was super scary! I screamed and screamed non-stop! I went like "Allahuakbar! Oh god! Oh Allah, save me! I don't wanna die!!!" Yep, Lethal Weapon is a sick thing to go on. It's a row of seats and all it does is spin you vertically 360 degrees. Even my 9 yr old cousin, Ziyad, went on it. And then me and Athirah hopped on the Sky Rider. A bunch of swings that go spinning around. And then it was the Euro Wheel which is just a ferris wheel. That was quite fun. The next thing and the thing which made me go in ultra throw up mode was the Tristar. I really felt like throwing up on that one. Super scary.

Today is the day they go back home! Hu hu hu...! I'm so sad...I sedih sgt now that they're gonna go away!

Paramore Decode

How can i decide whats right?
When your clouding up my mind,
I cant win your losing fight,
All the time.

How can i ever own whats mine?
When your always taking sides,
But you wont take away my pride,
No not this time...
Not this time.

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well,
How did we get here?
I think i know how.

The truth is hiding in your eyes,
And it's hanging on your tongue,
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that i cant see.
What kind of man that you are?
If your man at all,
I will figure this one out.
On my own...
(Screaming i love you so)
On my own...
(My thoughts you cant decode)

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well,
How did we get here?
I think i know how.

Do you see,
What weve done,
Were gonna make such fools,
Of ourselves...
Do you see,
What weve done,
Were gonna make such fools,
Of ourselves...
YEAH

How did we get here
I used to know you so well
Yeah Yeah Yeah
How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
I think i know...
I think i know...


There is something,
I see in you,
It might kill me,
I want it to be true.

Decode by Paramore
Soundtrack for Twilight
Lyrics by Haley Williams